almost a year since the last entry. when D said i'd be the loser if i couldnt hold out and wait for u to text me in a weeks time (i actually gave up on day 2), i didnt think it'd be this huge an effect.

right now, if i dont text u, i'd never hear from u. not that i do hear from u even if i do text u. ure not gone yet and it already feels that way. if this is ur form of training, then this sucks bad. whenever ure out with ur friends, ure so happy, so happy that i become just a figment of ur memories in the back of ur head. i receive no texts whatsoever.

when ure with me, all u think about is sleeping. u sleep whereever. in the car, in my room. when ure awake, ure on the phone checking FB and chatting with ur friends. and u say u dont have time to check ur phone when ure with ur friends.

Priorities. i place u as number 1 for anything. i can leave my plans early to get u, or not plan anything, just waiting to c if ure doing anything. how about u? u prioritize urself, jumping on ur own holidays when ive told u the plans (sure i didnt confirm cause i couldnt, u couldnt take the chance), going on ur own fun trips, only texting me when u needed me at the fair.