its been awhile again since my last post. getting hard to regularly update this blog with my desktop in the final stages of its life. speaking of final stages of life, ive seen for my own eyes how a person's life can abruptly shorten and come to an end.

this started approximately a year back when initial news of my aunt's cancer came to our knowing. back then, she still looked as healthy as ever. keeping up her pace in maintaining the household of my 2nd aunt, and taking care of my bed-ridden grandma. my aunt had definitely put in a lot of effort to help others, to the extent that she didnt enjoy life's pleasures herself. trips to foreign countries were few and even then, it'll be short trips to nearby countries. back then, it was known that she wanted to visit korea. a wish which would never be met.

fast forward a few months of treatment and all. aunt was told that the illness was clearing. surely, every1 was pleased and life went back to normal for all of us. she continued watching over the household of her younger sis and continued with the routine feeding, cleaning and what nots of the elderly grandma. all of a sudden this year, my aunt complained of irritations and problems breathing. symptoms she had been so familiar with during the earlier courses of the cancer stages. doctor then confirmed that, the illness was back again.

the doctor, careful not to let my aunt know, informed my 2nd aunt that she had only 6 months left max. this news spread amongst the family and preparations were under way. 2nd aunt's family wanted to bring her on a trip to korea, the place she so longed to go. but with all the sudden care and attention, it was pretty much evident to her that her life wasn't gonna last. she rejected the offer to go to korea. and continued looking after the grandma. even when she knew her time was coming to an end, she continued on.

before even half the 6 predicted months had passed, its 05/09/08 (also the fateful day i rammed my car's rear bumper into the wall but thats another story). before this day, my aunt had already been warded. on this day, the doctor informed us that the amount of morphine given to my aunt had been increased. as her breathing became more and more laboured, we all knew that it was coming to an end. the doctor confirmed with us that she had only 1-2 days left. 

just as the doctor had said, my aunt passed away peacefully in her sleep at 2AM 07/09/08. 

all her funeral preparations were pre-arranged by her. she had informed my 2nd aunt of which companies to call and who should be told of her death. she had known that her time was coming to an end. and faced it bravely. 

i miss her. may she rest in peace.