Song I'm Listening To : Linkin Park - What I've Done

well things havent been going good actually...

since last post, ive actually accomplished smth by returning to MoS

and in tt same week, did a double clubbing by also visiting DBL O for my 1st tym of my life... quite a weird experience. though it was free entry... i didnt really enjoy it... nt very nice company, not v nice drinks (in fact, quite f***ed up drinks, and also F***ED UP girls). lol.. in fact, weiyang even said that most of the gals there cldnt even be considered as girls. LOL. the visit to MoS was like... way better... with derrick there. LOL. + finally seeing Alvin Wu in so long... wonder if he is still as fucked up as when he was at CJC. tt would be terrible wouldnt it. LOL

finally completing my 5 duties for this mth tmr... after which i will haf a week without duty but then suffer frm another weekend burn when i haf duty nxt saturday. tts y i so want 2 find ppl 2 go out wif ytd and 2dae... but 2 no avail... zzz

ytd went for steamboat dinner with some of the RPs... it was enjoyable meeting clarence again after so long. after he got posted out of RP and revocated to become a clerk. he shd haf juz stayed. he brought so much laughter to the RPs and also to the outing yesterday. after the outing wanted 2 go meet Mel... to make full use of my weekend tym... didnt want to go home... but wad happens? she asks me 2 hang up...

i noe it was my fault... but... sometimes, i really dont haf the tym... and not say confirm can contact u 1? so often i call but dun get a reply. nt even a call back... and unreplied msgs.

bah, dun wanna talk abt it... i dunno wad 2 do la... later going dinner with shaun, tonia and derrick. u were invited but u dont want to go... so yea... dun say i never spend tym with u. i wanted to...

tmr duty will be damn suay. with a DO famous for turnouts and 2 RPs famous for gettin into accidents... lol... shd b quite an amusing duty with all the mistakes and all. gettin quite used to turnouts as long as they dun occur at the weird hours like my previous duty with a turnout at 1150pm... causes every1 2 b damn tired... what kinda weird idea was it that though turnouts will raise the alertness of the guards... too many in my opinion will cause the fatigue to increase and thus the alertness will take an alarming decrease. but of what the heck, this is life. get used to it.

grandma in hospital now... doesnt sound good. last tym i visited her at home... she was juz way tired... on the bed, and without energy to do much... i dun like the feeling...

seems like everything is going down... but wtf, i gotta make these all go up again. no point juz sitting down in my chair and sulking and thinking abt how fucked up life is. gotta go and make some effort to get out of this shithole. gotta start with stuff in camp 1st. too many mistakes haf been commited and i gotta go and get my basics right so that i can answer when asked.

final theory test coming up in May. gotta get myself to study for it unlike the basic thepory test which i totally forgot abt till the day itself. this tym i cfm needa pass then i can begin wif my practical lessons. i needa be able 2 drive by next year... latest b4 entry to university. before that, dun tink i really need the car so i can afford to take my tym.