almost a year since the last entry. when D said i'd be the loser if i couldnt hold out and wait for u to text me in a weeks time (i actually gave up on day 2), i didnt think it'd be this huge an effect.

right now, if i dont text u, i'd never hear from u. not that i do hear from u even if i do text u. ure not gone yet and it already feels that way. if this is ur form of training, then this sucks bad. whenever ure out with ur friends, ure so happy, so happy that i become just a figment of ur memories in the back of ur head. i receive no texts whatsoever.

when ure with me, all u think about is sleeping. u sleep whereever. in the car, in my room. when ure awake, ure on the phone checking FB and chatting with ur friends. and u say u dont have time to check ur phone when ure with ur friends.

Priorities. i place u as number 1 for anything. i can leave my plans early to get u, or not plan anything, just waiting to c if ure doing anything. how about u? u prioritize urself, jumping on ur own holidays when ive told u the plans (sure i didnt confirm cause i couldnt, u couldnt take the chance), going on ur own fun trips, only texting me when u needed me at the fair.

Maybe u really don't want to give us a chance anymore. I don't know.

U don't seem to enjoy chatting or hanging out together as much as u did before.

I'm trying. I've changed. Now you're the 1 doing the yelling and scolding. I grit my teeth and press on.

Though i successfully managed to get Tuesday back as a date, I really hope you go there happy. If it's just going to be miserable, I'd rather get another day. All this planning is tough. I should have started earlier. Damn OT.

That night was awesome for you. So much so, i didn't get a message/call. When you hang out with me, there's no awesome in it anymore apparently.

I know i made a mistake, I'm trying to remedy it. Please accept it. Don't leave us hanging on the edge. I'm getting very tired and weak. With work piling up at the same time, life plays jokes on us.

weekly shisha sessions. regular pool sessions. this is what life has been all about. lol

relaxation.

the real long days in school just drain everything outta me by the time friday comes.

then the fun weekend hits! woot! this weekend:

AIRSHOW saturday morn/afternoon

SHISHA saturday evening/night

woot woot.

Sunday empty tho. hmm... Pool? Shisha? lol

u get the point.

i cant say i wasnt surprised at ur sudden revelation

sure i may have predicted 1 or 2 of them

but the trust was there. i trusted what u said.

1 thing i do know, is that i still love u the same

merry xmas.

so exams are over. the last 3 papers were simply... disastrous. i totally hope i passed em so i dont have to take em ever again. besides worrying, the only other thing i can do now is have fun till results come out! woohoo!

past 2 days have been spent out. just walking around, shisha-ing and just talking cock. with more shisha sessions planned for the duration of this holiday, accompanied with other tentative plans, this holiday seems pretty darn decent.

and well, the birthday is coming soon and pressured into having some sort of gathering for my birthday. how about i choose the more laid back version of a shisha gathering, or the more hyped up hotel room gathering.

and some birthday gifts u guys should totally consider!

1) Mazda RX-8 (the real thing. i oredi have the toy car)

2) Pool table? lol

3) Megan Fox

4) Megan Fox.

5) Good exam results. or decent. whichever.

6) Rock Band 2. (inclusive of PS3 pls)

yea, any of these gifts would do. thanks! =D

exams are here. MoM paper over.

better than expected i must say.

for the first time i spent so much time on past year papers and tutorials.

tutorials which shd have been done during the course of the sem.

at least i did em in the end.

with 5 papers remaining, the last week of exams prove to be the stumbling block

with 3 cores over 5 days, i must be thankful that there is a break between each paper.

2 electives next. forensic is so foreign and astro... the quiz results say it all.

at least tech comm has a B+ for speech and a B+/A- for the report itself. reasons to be happy.

the past few days have been days of great discovery.

that the train is emptier when i gotta go for 1030 lessons compared to 830.

that it takes helluva long to get to school via train.

in summary, the car is back from the workshop.

back to the roads i go.

another thing i just found out.

that im in close contact with people from hall. flirting to be exact =D

that the project meetings allowed me to mingle with these "people"

who these "people" are i've no idea

cause i sure havent added any1 new to facebook recently

thank you for your wonderful appraisal of a guy

on how their feelings tend to sway

how u constantly seek to sabotage my relationship

seems to display a sense of jealousy

until i begin to use these underhand means,

you still have the upper hand