Song I'm Listening To : High School Musical - Breaking Free
Mood : .puzzled.STRESSED.bored.

well... tomorrow is my last duty of february. duh right, since tmr is the last day of feb as well. lolx. 2dae had quite a fucked up beginning... our run was cancelled due to the rain... and the RP schedule was vandalized by a RP who's gonna ORD soon... real soon. wad caused the action i do not noe, but i tink it was a real stupid decision. originally, the schedule planned by a fellow spec indicated that the spec would do an hour of desk. but this RP, without using his brains, decided to change the "YC" to "YC/WY/J" meaning the hour of desk duty was split amongst the 3 of us specs and then he added "20 mins a day, $700 a month, thus $1.75 a minute" next to it. this didnt sit well with the specs and we thus reported it up to the BSO. sadly, the punishment we were hoping for was severely lacking. all they went through was a simple turnout 2 check their field packs to make sure they had everything. furthermore, the RP involved wasnt in the turnout as he was standing sentry at the moment. thus, only innocent personnel were affected by this act of dumbness by the RP. personally, i cannot stand this kinda nonsense and i would haf dealt with him provided i was in another camp. in this camp, the rank i hold does not possess much power and authority... if only i were in BMT, the end result of this would be drastically different.

2 add to the misery, tomorrows duty originally had a real good DO in the form of LTA Clara. lolx. apparently her duties are all rather peaceful and all cos she doesnt believe in turnouts. but wad a horrible change in destinies when i saw in the Routine Orders that the DO had been changed to 2LT Alex... drastically different... he is 1 who indulges in turnouts on most if not all his duties. apparently his turnouts haf nonsensical reasons too such as the Guard Commander not being up to standard and all. looks like i'll haf to prepare myself and my guards tmr for turnouts. heh. hopefully nothing else screws up. i shd b able 2 handle a turnout or 2. lolx.

this week seems to be breezing by. duty tomorrow and then thursday, i'll only haf 2 work frm 1pm to 530pm as i'll haf my duty rest. friday will be even better as i'll be at the Mess Bowling session. after which, i'll haf 2 rush home to gather my stuff and go down for Shaun's BBQ. however, this BBQ seems to haf many puzzling details all relating to the string of weird messages that Shaun sent juz a while earlier (about an hr ago). details will not be mentioned here.

my life seems 2 b picking up
with me regaining some cheerfulness
in my attitude and communications

Song I'm Listening To : Beyonce - Listen (Dreamgirls OST)
Mood : .DUN ASK.

well, now that my keyboard is fixed, i can finally stop using the fucking on-screen keyboard that every computer has. its so fuckin retarded i decided to get off msn since i take so fucking long to reply a single sentence with as many short forms as i could use. now that i can use my Logitech once again, my ranting can finally be blogged. hopefully i can still rmb most of the content that i wanted 2 put up tt day.

2 days ago... the day my keyboard broke down.
i came home a pissed off guy as my keyboard was down. without my keyboard, not only could i not play WoW or DotA but i cldnt even do my most basic activity (MSN). thus... not a very happy person. after which, i received a phone call askin me to go down to Dhoby Ghaut. only after i asked, did i noe they were gonna catch Ghost Rider. thx man, i c that there was "an" intention 2 ask me along. after that, they tried 2 get a tic near their seat apparently. cmon, do i look like a 6 year old kid? i oredi knew it was 90% impossible 2 get a seat nearby. i only went down 2 use the arcade. after which, "A" said that i shd watch since he cld juz watch with his frenz and i shd watch with "B". wad u sayin do0d, that ive got no other frenz 2 watch it with? i noe i aint s sociable s u. but i do haf my own grp of frenz. i dun take kindly 2 this kinda comments. juz a mental note 4 u. thus, i was so bored and went down to dhoby ghaut to play arcade for a mere 15 minutes before i headed home. i purposely took bus home so that i dint feel like such a loser.

im gonna return 2 my old world. one, with juz me. im not gonna care abt anything or anyone else. keep my out of ur lives. i want 2 be alone. leave me be. i noe i wun die without everyone's company. i can live with juz my computer. i cant rmb all my rants. and this is enuf. im gonna go off now. cyaz.

ive had enuf
its tym 4 me 2 leave
u may still talk 2 me
but u will NOT c me

Song I'm Listening To : -NIL-
Mood : -NIL-

well. today is the last day of the Chinese New Year break which was supposed to last 5 days for me since last friday was also an off course of some meeting for the regulars. But, this good news wasnt to be mine as during the "GSAB CNY Celebrations", i was suddenly told that i had 2 replace Kobchai's Guard2IC duty on friday due to some carelessness in planning by my dearest officer. hahaz. tt also meant that i would haf 2 sleep in on CNY eve as i would b dead tired thus reducing my 5 days of break into the 3 days of CNY that we get off. hopefully, i get compensated duly for the extra shit that i had 2 do.

over the course of the past 3 days, there has been visiting, the munching on goodies and also the all important collection of hong baos (yes, im a money minded fool). however, every year whenever people compare their takings for the festival, im always left as the jealous guy sitting in the corner as my rewards are always so damn small compared to the rest. juz yesterday, after the dota outing, weili was discussing on how he got 400+ even though his maternal side of the family are all overseas. wow, even wif all my relatives in town, i still only got a whooping 170bucks. if i dun remember wrongly, thats already quite high compared to my previous year's takings! so i shd feel oh so happy.

today, there was soccer at shaun's place. interesting. lucky we arranged 2 play there cos the turnout was juz horrendous. at his place, there was another grp that were gonna play so we ended up playing tgt. the more the merrier. after soccer, went for lunch at the nearby hawker center and we talked abt all the happy times of ACS(BR). though ACS(BR) life was fun, i still tink that the life at CJC was the best so far. with all the Air Rifle peeps, my life was juz so entertaining. after lunch, juz went home and slept. reading through the Digital Life for today, i saw the article about the cool phones at some overseas convention. man, the Motorola RIZR Z6 is juz so nice. + theres green in the design! wad an attractive phone. gotta get my hands on 1 when it comes out in Singapore. wonder how long it will take to release in Singapore.

tomorrow marks the return to camp after the nice long break. looking at the current situation, i guess the field pack inspection will be tomorrow. luckily, my field pack is nicely packed oredi and thus there shdnt b much problems. i only worry abt my men not havin their field packs packed in the right manner then i get in trouble for not ensuring that their stuff are done the right way. thats the sad life of a specialist man. we get blamed from both the btm and the top. talking abt getting blamed from the btm. this morning i received a call from the RP on duty ytd. man, i shd haf known not to pick up. he called and told me that i had 2 activate a replacement as the RP that was on duty today still hadnt turned up at 755 even though the reporting time was 800. after going through so much trouble to ring other RPs up (most had phones off and those that were on, didnt pick up), they called back and told me that the RP on duty had finally woken up at a whooping 810. man, was he late. lolx.

thursday i have freakin duty. no mood 2 do duty after such a long break sia. i wanna go out and play the basketball machine and my initial d with my Mitsubishi Lancer Evolution 4. though it got trashed ytd by a pro, im so not demoralised and will continue 2 strive on to improve my car. HA!

my mind is so clouded
that i cant c a thing
i cant think a thing
and the world is collapsing
without me knowing

Song I'm Listening To : MCR - This Is How I Disappear
Mood : .bored.RELAXED.sianz.

well... CNY is around the corner and my 1st duty for February is also drawing closer. in fact, its juz 2 days more for my duty. the day where there will be an audit. screw up. how unlucky can i get. but well, work is work. cant complain. this week will b kinda short. monday (aka tomorrow) will be PRIDE Day for us. meaning half day at Singapore Discovery Center. lolx. relax sia. tuesday duty. wednesday duty rest half day, then work the rest of the day. thursday, CNY celebration dinner in the evening and friday i heard is off. woohoo! love offs. lolx. makes life in army way more passable. without offs, i guess army life will b hard 2 pass.

nothing much has occurred over the past few days other than some "bonding" sessions with some RPs. lolx. after the MSER challenge at Kranji camp, we went home b4 meeting up again to play pool at Meridian Shopping Center there. interesting games we all had. was at MOS yesterdat with Kelvin Chia (ex-Base Security Officer) and derrick. was rather cramped through the night but also saw a cute girl. lolx. also spotted a nice pair of jeans at River Island thx 2 Tonia. prolly shall go down tmr to try and c if it really is tt nice as it looks. maybe wear oredi nt tt nice. lolx. if nice then buy 4 CNY. even though im not going visiting also need 2 buy new clothes. if u r thinking y im nt going visiting, its because a taxi can only fit 4 passengers and my family has 5 ppl. thus, 1 person will haf 2 sit out. i guess i'll stay home and play WoW and listen to my MP3s.

anybody got any nice songs 2 recommend me 2 download. i need more songs in my collection. lolx.

There're things that I have done,
You never should ever know!

And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
- extracted from MCR - This Is How I Disappear

wad shd i do
these thoughts keep repeating
over and over again in my head
its like a never ending loop
that i can never get out of

Song I'm Listening To : Akon feat. Snoop Dogg - I Wanna Love You
Mood : .sian.BORED.hopeful.

sianz... 2dae was Lt Kelvin Chia's ORD. man... cant wait 4 my own ORD after seeing how happy he was after exchanging his 11B for the pink IC that we were forced 2 exchange for a year ago 4 me. so quickly tym flies and im down to juz 1 remaining year before i ORD. cant wait 4 tt day though. however, with the leaving of army also comes more worries including where will the income come in from. it also spells the impending entry into university where studies again become an important point in one's life. me, being the type tt cant get force myself 2 study, will definitely haf trouble when the tym comes 2 enter university. with all the smart kids arnd u, it will really b tough when all u haf in ur mind is World of Warcraft, movies and pool. lolx. tts the kinda guy i m. since JC. where everyone was so gd at maths in the F maths class, and all i cld tink of was where 2 DotA after school wif the shooting guyz. so it was kinda lucky tt i managed 2 get through my A levels with grades good enough to enter NTU. but tt was a year ago. so much tym has passed and i havent really changed.

2 celebrate his ORD, the 3 specs and a few of the RPs went down to some KTV in chinatown... me, being the kind tt doesnt sing. sorta paid money 4 a hilarious concert. listening to em sing and laugh at each other was really an eye opener as it was my 1st tym gg to KTV. still dun really noe wads so fun abt it though. id rather spend the money in a club, at a cinema or juz playing pool. lolx.

**i wanna go invisible
**i dont wanna go between people
**i juz wanna disappear
**like the song by My Chemical Romance
**cos it sucks to be in the middle
**and be the 1 tt breaks things up
**i shd juz die

when will i learn
not to commit so many mistakes
especially mistakes tt r so grave
tt i can nv fix em
no matter hw much i try

Song I'm Listening To : My Chemical Romance - This Is How I Disappear
Mood : .feel.like.disappearing.into.oblivion.

whew. juz came back frm being range chamber safety specialist. freakin tiring day. standing arnd guiding the BOBOs and the marksmen, ensuring safety is always taken into account and all that shit. with juz a few hrs of break allocated to lunch and dinner. considering i woke up at 4.40am this morning, im quite amazed i stayed awake during the day. though i obviously did take a lil bit of shut eyes here and there. but its juz not enuf.

watching all the shooting brings back memories of CJC Air Rifle (the sighting and all) and all the ranges i have had since enlisting. being in the shoes of the chamber specialist is really different frm that of the shooter. as the shooter, u need not worry a bit abt the zeroing process. juz concentrate on aiming the same spot. wad an easy job that is... i had 2 keep clicking the thing 2 zero their darn rifles. lolx. luckily the seniors were ever present to help along.

now that range is over for the day, my mind got thinking again. not that i wasnt thinking abt all those stuff during range, but juz not as much. with all the free time in the world at home, my mind got into overdrive thinking of all that has happened 2 me through my life. and it seems... that all the girls that ive liked, always seem 2 disappear into oblivion. wad a sad life i have. if this keeps up, there wun b any more gals i like in this world. HA.

saturday, underage party. hu going? i dunno if i can go with my "massive" amount of hours sleeping over the past few days. and i wouldnt want 2 go alone either. no cash too. luckily pay is in abt 8 days time... 1 week mre to go, and i can go spending again! shop shop movie movie! hahaz. gotta watch "300", and many more. catch Apocalypto if u enjoy shows abt tribal ppl and the way they go abt their lives. i like the sacrificing. heh. kinda sadistic i am. lolx. rolling heads.

and... vivocity has a nice rooftop 2 enjoy scenery man. i love it! lolx. im such a slacker.

[edit 2/2 12.06am]
respondin to charm's blog.
Make a list of 5 things not many people know about you, then tag 5 people to do the same!
1) I like girls
2) My index finger is smashed
3) I love girls
4) I dun like tellin ppl wad they dunno abt me
5) I dun like doing surveys

-TAGGED ONES-
1) no-one
2) no-one
3) no-one
4) no-one
5) no-one (and tts cos no1 visits)


the more things i do
the mre screwed up i become
and also the mre thoughts i haf
in my head