as the days tick down to the impending test. im surprised im totally not worried about it. i so gotta put my mind down and get those formula into my brain. would be bad to have a mind full of nonsense and no formula for the test.

focusing on other things, i sense a turn in events soon. can i make it. hopefully. firstly, ive gotta let things run for awhile. preferably a week. i'll be behind u. have faith in yourself. u know u can do it. *cheers*. u do well for urs, and i do well for my test. we'll both be happy then. after which, i'm sure the skies will clear and the situation will be that much less confusing.

thanks for the support during this period "sis". ha. it's been helpful. i've done what i should and ive got more things to do. it'll all finish soon.

*** ive just bought a new river island top. HA! there were so many other nice designs. gonna go back soon =D want a shopping buddy? tag me!

m here in the midst of slogging through my tutorials. damned are they getting tougher and tougher. all that talk about everything being easy. well that was chapter 1. how tough could it really be. as the CA approaches (next thurs 5 MCQ qns), the reality that not everything is in my head yet strikes me really hard. as i plod through the tutorials, i spend 90% of the time sourcing through my notes for a bare hint on how to answer the questions.

now that school has been covered. other stuff cloud my mind. memories are whats holding me together. how i wish the past would return. hoping for the pretty face that now shuns me to return. reminiscing the past does make the present seem miserable sadly. oh well, the timely presence of friends and WoW is helping me crawl through this stage. friends, people that are there when you really need them. learning to trust others as time goes too. been more open with stuff i'd normally seal into the depths of my mind such that no1 would ever find out.

since im into the topic of WoW. ive finally gotten my second lv 70 character. LOL. gaming is fun and school is helping me get less addicted to WoW. well, it is a really fun game =D but i gotta get back my outside life. the life which consists of meeting friends, playing pool, bowling and the likes. considering my TP is fast approaching yet again, i'd have to free up time to meet derrick's dad yet again. this time, im gonna pass. i hope LOL =D

alright, gotta get back to the mountain of notes and tutorials that i left on the table. gotta finish up the tutorials and start drinking "potions" of burnt lecture notes mixed with water. sounds vaguely similar to the online temple thing featured in a local production doesn't it. i heard the "potion" really does work. =D take care guyz. we'll meet soon!

this is tiring. i am drained.
who can i trust?

and finally the elusive photos are here!!

Song I'm Listening To : Mario Winans feat. P Diddy - I Don't Wanna Know

woot. firstly. MAN UTD ARE EPL CHAMPIONS!

ok that said, school sucks. lol. contrast eh. so yes, NTU has to be retarded. theres holiday nxt monday and so the lecturer wants a replacement lecture. and people r suggesting friday 430PM? holy crap, what happened to friday is a weekend? people here are so into their studies and everything, its crazy. me and shaun hafta be the only people dozing off and all that. lol. hopefully, there r more normal people when the actual school year starts. but it is after all NTU. after all ive heard, my hopes aint exactly very high. lol.

past week has seen me start drinking alcohol again. darn thats bad. wednesday night was supposed to be spent at zouk. but after a series of unfortunate events (*cough* @ sherry), we ended up visiting butter factory and ended at Dbl O. well, they left @ 1. me and shaun stayed till late with bak kut teh and talk cock session till morning. friday was then spent celebrating sherry's birthday at Margarita's. quite a cool place. thanks sherry! lol. i know it cost u a bomb.

so yea, im up for more clubbing over the next few weeks before the actual school year starts. or rather till the exam in this special term period. thats when i'll hafta really sit down and get my head in the notes or i'll regret it in the long run. exams r always impt. bah. boring shit.

apologies to people who have had appointments cancelled and all. clashes in schedule happens rather often. lol. previous time for dota has been replaced. i can dota on saturday nights tho. thats prolly a good time. clubbing is now shifted to either wednesday or friday. so ya.

alright gotta get prepared to meet derrick. cya guyz and take care =D tag if u do drop by

ive made mistakes havent i.
im not feeling right at all. this has to change.
hopefully with the school term starting, things will change. things had better change. i don't wanna affect people. im myself.

Either its the impending school year thats gettin to me or im really getting cranky and everything. so yea, sorry if i stepped on anyone's toes recently. tmr gotta get down to get my EZ link card for uni settled. bah... y cant they do it at every MRT station. nearest 1 i can go to is like Hougang Interchange. zzz.

read back on my 1st eva post on this post with the funky address. lol. man, what a rant that was. practically cursed every1 from my JC class. lolx. looks like i had some issues with em man. forgotten most of em now but yea, theres still this gap between us. hopefully the birthday party wont be that bad. considering the person i talk to the most wont even be going. the rest of the grp would be kinda boring. gotta find an excuse to bail out ASAP. but yea, i guess thats the purpose of this blog. to rant at people around me. right now, i really wanna write about something but i cant do it. because this blog just aint as hidden as before. used to be a blog only certain people could access. now... its kinda open. involves secrets that have resurfaced. some things are just meant to fade into oblivion and not to be brought back out to the public ears. but some1 had brought out some secret of mine. tho the incident of mentioning it was some time back. i controlled myself and sought to forget everything. just like how ive always forced myself to forget all that have done things against me. forgot i did, after hanging out with derrick. bowling away tons of money at the same time. forgot i thought i did, but it was always in my mind.

just like every other thing that ive pushed to the back of my head, these things always resurface for me to think deeply about in the weirdest place possible. the shower. lol. but yes, thats where i spend all my time thinking about these issues and whether i should really keep em within me and not push it out for some discussions. for now, i'll still keep everything in me. ive just no idea how long i can keep this up. its almost like im wearing a mask and keeping everything bad beneath the mask. my exterior is of 1 that doesnt care about anything and just wants to pass the days. but who is to say that im not feeling anything inside. some stuff just dont need to be said out loud to know that it has an effect on me. doing things behind my back doesnt help too. ive got FRIENDS that will inform me about these incidents.

as for that issue of secrets being revealed. i'll still keep it quiet. if more secrets of mine appear again, i'll definitely make my displeasure known. and then, we'll all have a nice show to watch. i just wanted to get on to do this blog post. it doesnt make me feel any better but at least i know ive tried to put it out in words.

school's beginning but im pretty damn sure i can stil come online just as much. so come find me online or text me if u wanna meet me to do anything from a movie to pool. anything really. anything except retarded things that irritate me. cyaz around guyz and take care =D