haizzzz... wad a sad n boring day 2dae la. wasting my holiday tym.

go sch early in the morning 4 some boring maths lesson. cmon la... u made me wake up @ 745 to attend ur lesson la. i m still tryin 2 get back my slp ya noe? then mr chew want lecture tmr? go and die la. me wanna slp. u go lecture 2 empty lect hall la. dun care u

then after tt went 4 lunch and then had training. oh man... seriously, can some1 replace me in the team? let antony take my place la. Let me admit this: i changed so many cards today jz 2 get 8.925 la. can some1 try n understand the part that i changed my cards? when i told capt tt, he didnt care la. i m doin wad ant did la... i CHANGED MY CARDS! CAN SOME1 C THIS? kick me out of the team la. i duwan 2 pull down the team at Nationals la. coach gt so high expectations of us. sianz.

then after tt transport the guns to SAFRA. wah lau. so long journey. damn sianz leh. 4get 2 bring my zen micro somemore. then go eat dinner, go hm, bathe, then come online... then go play dota and got owned la. woohoo. i super noob. 1 kill 14 deaths. hu wanna challenge this noob? i suckz in everything la. CS, Soccer, BBALL, DOTA, shooting, everything la... yay! i suck! cyaz!

EDIT: Guess wad, i jz realised tt *mystery* was online last night! when i dozed off! yay! no luck @ all. no luck.......

woot. i jz woke up after a short nap la. lol. so damn tired. after coming back frm the camp, i nearly dozed off when i was bathing, eating and when i was reading the newpapers. i aint kiddin la. wtf. lol. bathe halfway, then begin 2 close eyes and lose concentration of my surroundings. lol. sianz

ytd night, only slept abt 1 hour. and tt 1 hr was on a bed of concrete, that becomes so cold @ night, we had 2 use a hand dryer to warm ourselves up in the morning. lol. so unconfortable, so cold and yet, it was the chosen place 2 slp in. lol. in the end, managed 2 pull off 1 hour of uninterrupted sleep. so lucky. if nt, now i will b even more tired. haha. for the whole of last night, we played games like Bridge, Mahjong, Murderer. Lol. though i dunno hw 2 play mahjong, i managed 2 join in on the bridge and murderer games. lol. in the end, all slowly go n slp, leaving only a few of us @ 5. lol. then i contemplated whether i needa go slp, n finally decided tt i shd go, irregardless of weather it would b a 1 hr of 3 hr sleep. lol.

yea.. ok. i tink i really hafta go slp now... if nt tmr cant shoot properly. if i aim for a 540 tmr, i can most likely break 540 in the coming comp. GO CJ!

woah. managed 2 log in on time. lol. this is really 11.59 la. nt fake. haha. jz realised tt my tagboard has been rather empty. lol. wonder if tt is gd or bad. anw, tmr got camp sia. so wun b online for 2 days. lol. most likely wun b blogging unless nth btr 2 do go use school com and blog. lol. doubt i will b tt sian anyway.

today qt sian la. by the time i wake up, half a normal day is practically gone. i woke up @ 12 la. haha. tmr cant wake up so late already. then went down to the CreativeX thing ALONE. lol. so fun la. the ride there also nt say v long. the efficiency of Singapore's transportation system also nt bad sia. lol. plus wif the company of my ZEN MICRO, i wasn't even bored la. lol. come home then dota... then watch Final Fantasy : The Spirits Within. not bad wad. lol. last tym got ppl tell me tt it sux la. lol. after that DotA. wow, my teamwork wif alvin not bad sia. but team with daniel btr. alvin abit mad. lol. k la. tt shd b all. cyaz when i get back frm camp

woot... editted msg: jz remembered tt... i managed to tok to *mystery* today! woopeeeee... so happy. can slp peacefully 2nite.

hu wanna go jurong east either on saturday or sunday, pls leave a msg on my hp or on my tagboard. dun wanna go there alone... Creative fair gonna rawk. LIME GREEN EARFONES! cant wait 2 get my hands on them. i bet my zen micro cant wait too. lol. ok jz kidding. too bad i nt creative care member. i also want those lime green speakers. jz realise those only discounted if u r creative card member. sianz 1/2

2day GP paper sia. 1st tym write so long essay la. my rough count was abt 1000 words, but i fell asleep after counting to 1000. u noe, c too many sheeps? lol... AQ also write extremely long this time. dunno y also. hope i do well, then can go laugh in chan's face... tell him " eh, u noe hw 2 mark or nt? gimme shit grade for mock! c this man. i m way btr than u tink i m". lol. skully come out even worse than mock. i will scream la.

then after tt met up wif shooting club ppl go watch Madagascar. LOL! funny movie sia... damn nice addictive song inside. lol. after tt all keep singing it... sadly, i forgot it already. hope some1 can download and send me. after tt went 2 play lan. wah seh, so long nv play CS. haiz... awp drop already... miss so many times... damn off form... haizzzz... then after tt play DotA... lol... still damn noob. i suck la. suck at everything. shooting, dota, studies, soccer, bball, vball, tabletennis, frisbee, CS... wad eva la. all suck

other than tt, today nth much lor... BltZ signing off

woot. today at correct time. nt affected by dota. lol... haha tmr last day of sch

hope can do well for my gp mids... dun wan 2 b barred frm prelims. lol. as if he can la. jz wanna do well. haha. then nxt wk shiok liao. camp, competition, extra lessons, DotA, more DotA, hopefully soccer, LAN, Pool... ok.. plan too much things. lol. jz wanna enjoy this holidays. haha

yesterday watch soccer until 6 am la. my family slp and wake up, i still havent slp yet. lolololol.... when i woke up, i actually tot it was 12 Noon la... end up is.... 3PM! wtf... tt is so late. lol. then wash up, eat ma lunch and began DotA... lol. lost and won... in the end draw. lol. tmr after exam, maybe going out. lol. c how la... it all depends..... haiizzzzzzzzzzz...

shd actualli slp earlier... i m sure i will end up sleeping tmr during the exam la.. lol. ggd luck to myself... and hueva sees this blog and is havin exams!

haha, always 11.59 damn sian. today put 11.58 la. actually this was blogged at 1.21 . lol. again play too much dota. wahahahaha. own in both games... Holyyy Shitttt. lol. ok, dun hao lian like ant... lol

today damn song la. last of the 2 days tt i haf 2 go sch. crap sia, though the class end damn early, i still slept during GP la. i tink mr chan damn pissed liao. aiya... checked the diary, they nv say cant slp in clz wad. wad can he do 2 me. lol. the whole day qt boring la... boring lessons... cool new frisbee for the class. lol. $1 each for an adidas frisbee. cool sia. lol. tym 2 resume our frisbee training i guess. lol

then after school, go for air rifle training... woohoo, today went mad and shot so many shots... i tink i shot abt 120 to 130. lol. competition only need 60 la. lol. managed to shoot 1 dunno wad kinda score la... look like exactly in middle... aiya. heck care la... mz make sure my score is more consistent. now hit 2 tens then nxt shot is a 6 la... means average for the 3 shots is not even 9. u noe how crap tt is? lol.

yar la. after training, then go eat dinner wif the shooting club ppl then went hm and play dota till now... woohoo, Champions League finals gonna start in 1 hr time... cant wait for a definitely exciting game... wahahah. hope AC Milan wins...

wah seh. dis wk really song sia. 2 days nia. lol. GP mid i confirm fail liao. jz look @ my mock paper's grades. wtf sia. only managed a 21 for the compre section. this yr, my grades keep dropping la. Shit. i tink ms low teaches btr. haiz... i btr do well 4 dis damn mid yr...

2dae damn boring la. go there for so short time... lol. pe lesson play netball halfway then T33 wanna challenge us to frisbee game. sianz... again i play so short time... i wanna playyyyyy frisbeeeee... i m in no way lousier than u all la... ok maybe got... lol. cant jump like u all mah. lol. nvm

the rest of the day, kip sleeping in class lor. damn boring and the tym pass so slow somemore. dumb. lol. then i got back my gp marks. wah lan. like shit sia. lol.4 ppl in a row all got 21. sian la. then after tt go 4 training lor... wah lan... shot like sai today. lol. tio 1 ten, then nxt shot suai suai gimme a 6. wah lan. tt lane 4eva bad luck sia. again screw up on me... lucky this time i managed 2 change lane b4 i started pulling the damn cables manually... tt will totally screw up my remaining shots. couldnt finish up my 60 shots 2dae la. maybe tmr try 60 shots again.

haiz. 2dae saw her online la... wtf... managed 2 start conversation wif her, then wtf is wrong wif me? totally couldnt say anything... like as though my tongue got caught in some mousetrap or smth except tt this is online... so... aiya, u get the pt... nth 2 say. fuck... well, at least she replied my earlier conversations wif her... haiz.... wad a failure i m...

ok, today i shall remember to post on time... no DotA today so wun exceed my time and haf 2 rewind the time. lol. today woke up early again. shit. got time 2 slp duwan, mz go wake up early. sparstic. lol. then in the afternoon went out to look for new shoe, new bag, my rip curl watch...

wah lau. tt watch... the salesperson tell me no stock of tt in Singapore!!! NO!!!!!!!! i like tt watch so much.... sobsob. then saw a damn nice pair of vans shoes. woah. may get it to add to my shoe collection. lol. how many nice shoes m i gonna get sia... i also got a new bag la. lol. lucky tt bad not say very ex. only $39.90

then after everything then go hm n stone lor. tt is also y i can blog so early 2dae. cos nth 2 do mah. however, still cant tink clearly. everytime i tink of smth, my mind will auto tink abt *mystery*. haiz. now then i realize tt i haf not started a msn conversation wif her for 4 days already even though i the last tym i seen her online was ytd. sianz. wad a lousy guy i m... i let u c the screenshot...

well, sadness as usual. i m Mr Lonely after all. cyaz

isnt it obvious, i faked the time again? been playin dota wif alvin, daniel and some gay frenz of alvin. sparstic ppl... fuck off la

2dae weird sia. so early in the morning wake up oredi. haix. wake up oredi, still tink abt the scam thing. shit la. really game over liao... haiz. mr lonely 4 the rest of my life. i can bet tt *mystery* is gonna b ignoring/avoiding me for the rest of my life. haiz.

wake up oredi, do wad i haf been doin excessively recently. dota-ing. lol. gettin btr bt still nt gd enuf. shd actually concentrate on my shooting training though. lol. gp mids also comin, but where is my mock paper? mr chan run away wif my papers ah. kns... we need reference la. mark so slow. concentrate too much on the drama isit... wah lan.

2dae nth much happen lor. go out eat seafood 2 celebrate dad's bdae. haiz... tt doesnt make any difference to my life doesnt it. i tot that if i play more dota, i will tink less... but wtf, play tt tym, still tinkin... haiz... something wrong wif my head. shd ask doctor check when i go visit soon. lol. medical checkup 4 ns... "hey doc, i tink i m mad..."... lol. wonder how he will check...

other than tt nth lor... takin medicine 4 cough again. amazingly, the drowsiness aint working... wad tym oredi? the actual tym now is 2am la... lol... still nt tired. weird medicine. maybe expired. ok nth more 2 crap. cyaz!

Woah wad a tiring day. this blog entry nt really type in @ 1159 but is actually typed in @ 1am. lol. jz tt i 4got to blog in bcos i was watching 1 of the most exciting matches of this season. lets go back to the start of the day.

Day started for me @ 1130. wow, wad a refreshing 12 hr slp. woohoo. felt good 4 an entire day of fun. had breakfast then went online 2 find ppl to tok abt. sadly 4 me, the day didnt really end up tt interesting. didnt go out at all. i m sure durin the holidays, i will try 2 spend much time out. either 2 play soccer, lan, pool, shop, game, tok cock, drink coffee. ah, u get the pt, jz get me out of the hse. anybody wanna ask me out? book a slot now. lol. jz kiddin. i shd b free everyday, unless i m training lor. i muz keep my place in the team. i got cheated yesterdae by a scam email la. shit shit shit. i tink i m gonna die. *mystery* will totally ignore me and i will be a total failure and will be a walking illustration of sadness. I will haf sadness written all over me la. u get the point right? "The Saddest Person Alive". Understand? dun understand, tag my board and i explain. lol

yea, ok back to my day, played DotA wif daniel... dunno how many games la. even in the end i tink. lol. though i won him wif 3 unfamiliar heroes. Go Broodmother and King Leoric and Sand King! haha. daniel is btr than me la. lol. jz tt he also ended up using unfamiliar heroes in the deathmatch mode. lol.

played dota till 11+ then went to watch soccer. and tt is also y i m blogging at this time and haf 2 fake the time la. lol.

i tink i btr go slp oredi if nt i will wake up @ 1 tmr. lol. cyaz!

WTF HAPPENED

Sighz. 2dae muz b 1 of the most demoralising days for the class of T15. early in the morning, make us go down to SMU to run here run there, throw here throw there, cheer here cheer there. oh u get the pt. then after tt, i saw *mystery*. So miserable... she sat in front of me wif her fren, but we didnt even say hi to each other. haiz... i m so stressed by this shit... y? y? y? where did all my gutz go? i dare 2 do so much shit, but sayin a simple hi and i cant do it? GAYNESS. lol. after tt was the 4X100m relay. all our expectations lay in the quartet of VanLong, Mat, WWW and JW. it was damn sad when they didnt do up to their expectations and subsequently got last for the finals. but dun wry, i tink u guyz did well, showin enthusiasm 4 ur training sessions. dun b 2 demoralised abt it, i tink the clz tinks the same way. Congrats 2 the quartet. *claps hand*

Then after watching all the other track events, especially those with Prashan running in it tt generated so much excitement 4 everybody, we proceeded to our games. All so complacent la, i told u all dun b complacent already right. kip on usin the same 1st team, of course u all will tire urselves out la. tink u all super ah. tt y in semi finals u all lost. jz bcos u all had no substitutions made. look wad happened in the 3rd/4th placing, when we played 2 fresh players 2 replace 2 exhausted players, we thrashed them la.

after the whole sports carnival, decided not to join the rest of the class to go and eat lunch @ the Adam road hawker centre cos i had 2 rush 2 meet alvin and the rest of the DotA guyz 2 go eat and play DotA. wad a shocker it was 4 me when i saw Antony there la. wtf. we then had 2 find ways and means 2 get rid of Antony so that we could all go play without the need 4 any vulgarities 2 b thrown @ some1 like how we all throw @ him the moment he gets arrogant la. First, me, dan and derrick walked all the way down to the next bus stop 2 show tt we were nt going wif alvin. we tot this would shake ant off so we decided 2 meet at Coro. at coro, ant was still there, so we went 2 haf lunch wif ant. amos then "said" that he had 2 "meet" his frenz and went somewhere 2 wait. then me, dan, weili and derrick took a taxi and went down to bkt timah plaza 1st, where we waited for alvin, amos and james 2 come on bus. lol. tt finally got rid of ant, but i m sure he noes la. lol. today's DotA game was damn fun la. play until so late and make me haf 2 take out every single coin i had on me la. lol. interesting... Slayer damn fun la.

ok lor... tired oredi. cyaz

thanks guyz

thanks 2 all the ppl tt showed care and concern to me. i appreciate it. seriously. especially to elie, who happened 2 b online at the right time. thx ah... 2dae soso day nia la. nth much happened. early in the morning go through boring lessons... wad crap ways to destress la. mr lim is damn against me la. i say i destress by playin computer games, u noe wad he say? he say tt i stress or not also play right. gay fag la. juz u wait la mr lim, my mid yr scores will b so gd, u will b shocked till ur pants dropped la. u tink whole of T15 lousy isit. when they told u tt they qualify for 4X100m finals, ur reaction was like woah... how on earth.. then when they said they got 3rd overall, u go tink they got 3rd in their heats. i m sure tmr at the finals, they confirm get top 3 la. then u will feel so happy 4 them. u cant always go around tinkin that T16 is better than us in every way la. then go through all those boring old lessons before getting ready for SPA skill A. dang la, this time nv study much, i tink i gonna do damn badly 4 this SPA assessment. hope not la. qt big portion of marks lor. haha. then i got disappointed yet again. when they decided that the frisbee team shd still contain the 4X100m finalists even though they would b slightly tired after their run. they said, if they dun play, then our class chances of winning will drop drastically. ok la, u al pro la. u noe how unfair this is? it means tt so many others hu want 2 play, will haf not a single chance 2 participate in anything 4 the whole sports carnival. u tink tt is fair? when u all ask hu wants 2 haf the last spot, i was kind enuf 2 give it to Sont la. and tt spot also nt confirmed. if Seng decides 2 play, then me, Sont and mathew will haf nth 2 do la. nt only tt, we wun even b allowed 2 go c other games la. i wan go c *mystery* also cannot already la. wad do i haf 2 do? b helper la. gayness. if u all lose, i wun feel sry 4 u all la. if u all win, then gd 4 u lor. wadeva la. doesnt concern me anymore does it? i dun tink i m part of the class anymore la. u all dun care abt me, then i dun care abt u all also lor. after PE, went hm and slept awhile b4 playin DotA wif kennedy, his frenz and some outsiders. gayness, nv even lemme get my holy shit. lol. i jz needed 1 more kill 2 hear the magic words... but it never came. all quit b4 i can get. lol. this is like the only happy moment of my day today la. i hate this. how come i can only enjoy myself when i m @ hm alone and facing my gay computer screen. oh wait, i tink i enjoy myself so long as i m nt wif the T15 guyz. get wad i mean? signing off

Lost all hope and faith, i m like a person filled with many worries. I haf given up on everything. I m a failure in everything tt i haf done, be it in relationships, games, studies or my CCA. though i haf shown marked improvement in my studies and shooting, this is still nt gd enuf... wad a failure i m. i haf totally no more faith in myself. no hope 4 me 2 win antony 2 qualify for Nationals squad. i really want 2 be inside. but how 2 shoot properly when i m troubled with so many worries. i m nt only worried abt my studies (mid yrs) or my CCA, but also by relationships. i haf 2 b the ultimate failure in relationships. though i try 2 give my best, y do i always screw up at the wrong times, now i really tink i m a failure. with this on my mind, how m i 2 put everything out and concentrate fully on my upcomin competitions like the NUS shoot or the Nationals. i m sure, if i cant put this outta my head, i will b kicked frm the team la. tt will b the ultimate blow 2 me. i dunno how i can survive my days after tt. no1 2 fall back on, no1 2 confide in. i trust no1 but myself. i m a failure, the ultimate failure. y...y...y.. i dun wan things 2 end up this way, i like her, but she definitely do not haf the same feelings for me. this will nv change no matter how i try right. somehow, in front of her, i lose everything. i cant even hold a proper conversation when i m in her presence. i really want 2 noe her better, but this is not workin out 4 me. i tink she is beggining 2 find me irritating. i tink i shall stop bothering her online or through sms. i shall jz keep 2 myself these few days, so dun blame me if i do not respond 2 u ppl. its not that i want 2 dao u all, but it is that i haf totally no mood 2 do anything. wonder whether will i play frisbee with the guyz tmr. c how. i dun even dare 2 say hi now. sob sob =(

Very depressed guy here... the song "Lonely" by Akon suits me perfectly now. I m the ultimate lonely guy. =( signing off.....

I so hate myself

Alright! todae sch ended early. only 230 la. lol. durin tt few hrs in sch, we had a play tt taught us how 2 handle stress (man tt seriously helped la), i seriously need stress management. The day also saw us go through a very intensive game of netball where mathew played damn well la. lol. make me run around jz 2 catch him b4 he can get the ball. lol. The game of netball was so hot la. the sun blazing down on us, makin us feel like we were playin in the Sahara more than in a court of CJC. lol. but this blazing sun was short lived, half an hour after the game, clouds begin 2 draw in bringin in heavy showers. my zen micro almost kena the water la. imagine if it got drowned by the rain, i tink i will cry like shit la. tt is my prized baby la. Thx 2 the rain, everywhere became so cold la. Make me so sleepy. lucky i kepy myself awake during GP. But it was during this lesson, tt the reality of the kind of friends i haf struck me again. Leaving me 2 be in Jon Sim's group was torture la. Wad did u all do? quickly run into each other's groups. lucky i haf my own ability 2 answer qns. After a boring day in the school, i then went to the range to train. wow, my groupin is improvin by so much. woohoo. 1 blasted zone and 1 stray shot. time 2 train 2 remove tt stray shot and shrink the blast zone. after tt, i m sure i can help team CJC climb to greater heights. Mathew's training also paying off. I can foresee his future in the team. lol.

Today, i managed 2 start conversation wif *mystery*. Man, i hate myself so much now. Y is it tt i like her so much but dare not to even open my mouth 2 tok 2 her? I really wanna tok 2 her 2 get 2 noe her better la. But wad m i doin, everytime i c her, my mind goes blank and its like as though some1 clamped down my tongue. how how? I hope this will all pick up soon. i haf half a year left in CJC before i go into NS. By tt time, i tink it will be hard 4 me 2 keep in contact wif her oredi. Hopefully, in June holidays, i can ask her 2 go out. hopefully. i can only hope... signing off

Wet and cold day

Wad a way to start the morning, cold and wetl. Lucky for me, my uncle fetches me to school, so i wasnt even caught a lil bit in tt heavy storm. Haha, when monica came to school, she keep complaining la. Haha. Wet shoes. Seems like a large portion of the class had it today la. Sont's shoes must definitely stink if they got caught in that storm we had this morning. we then had to go through so many boring lessons before we finally got dismissed at 430. Luckily there was no GP remedial today, if not i would haf slept throughout the whole remedial la. Damn tired. Then went 2 watch people train, wah seh, whole range full, end up helpin ppl count their score. After tt, we decided to hand around and tok abt DotA 4 awhile. man, we decided to go play on friday after Sports Carnival without letting Antony noe., So hueva sees this blog, better dun tell Antony. Lol. He damn arrogant in DotA la. Crapster. If he does that some more, no1 will ask him along to play DotA anymore la. We win him tt round, not a single word of congratulations la. Then when he wins, he keeps bragging about how he did it. and how it would be impossible for us 2 win him. WTF. lol. Anyway, i tink the watch i want will not be coming to Singapore la. Dun tell me i mz ask them 2 bring it in from Australia. So sad. i really want tt watch la. Hope it wun cost me so much money. Still gonna get a new Rip Curl Wallet and perhaps some new T Shirts. My current T Shirts not of good fit la. Sianz. When went home, went to play DotA. Man, never would i ahf expected to meet some1 frm paradiseRO la. Long time no c man Butter, lol, though u were the only person that had more kills than me in tt game, ur team eventually won the game cos we haf totally no hero tt could push past u guyz la. Nice game anyway, hope we can play together soon again. Learnt how 2 use Gondar today. Tested it on my brother. Damn fun la. The Screenshot of it will be posted up when i haf the time to cut it out of my replay. Cyaz soon. Signing off here.

Woah. today has been a very interesting day. Discovered that u can find lancraft games on #lancraft of galaxynet! Those guyz really r pro! I played 4 games and lost all 4. Haha. Muz train to improve. 1 Day, i will own them all. Oh yea, forgot to mention a point yesterdae. My shooting average dropped by 32! That is a lot la. Damn disappointed with myself. Hope i can pull myself together before the NUS Shoot comes. And hopefully, my NUS Shoot score will be equal to or better than wad i had shot for the recent CDANs Shoot. That was a 522 giving me an average of 8.7! If i haf shot better at the NUS Shoot, then my place in the Nationals will be most likely secured. Hopefully, we can raise Team CJC to greater heights guyz. If there is a change in the teams, i hope that Mathew can make it in. Lookin at his grouping, i m sure he is even better than me. If he comes in, we really stand a chance of doing CJC proud by clinching a medal against the odds of NationalJC, HwaChongInstitution and RafflesJC. VictoriaJC will be soundly beaten by our teamspirit and our desire for the medal. YEA! STRIVE ON TEAM! Sadly, i didnt do a single bit of studying or homework the whole day. Man, m i screwed tomorrow when i m asked to hand up my assignments for the week. I will be a goner man. Shyt. Lol. Other than that, nothing else to write in about, so cyaz around soon!

Nothing much happened today. Short day wad. Lol. (mystery person) also nv go sch 2dae. sob sob. lol. family matters wor. And gd reason 2 b happy 4 the class. Looks like there is a very probable chance that mathew will enter the school shooting team. Though that might mean that i might lose my place in the team, i dun mind. I haf already haf the fun of joining two competitions. Though i will miss the Nationals if i m dropped from the team, i also wun mind. Muz share the fun mah right? Lol. Hope that i can stay in the team and with Mathew on the team as well, there will be 2 T15 members on the team and it will b even btr if we can at least clinch a 4th in the nationals as that will already merit us a medal. Imagine going out there in front of the whole college and hearing 2 members from T15. Wow, mr lim will be proud of us eh. lol. maybe then, he will return me my $30 soccer ball. i will remember him 4 life if he doesnt return me man. lol

other than that, nth else happened. So happy that (mystery person) got reply my msgs.

Loss in DotA =(

Today, played DotA with a secondary school friend and his friend from ACJC. Man, we lost. How could that be. They claimed they were noobs. Lol. Well, learnt some lessons, and haf trained up a different way of fighting. Lol! M Sure we can win them some day. Wahaha. Ok other than that, nothing much happened in school again. Y the hell were all the LTs so cold! So hard 2 concentrate on the lectures going on la. And completed my tutorials ahead of the class again. Lol! Wonder how i actually do that considerin i nv ever do homework @ hme la. Lol. This shows that doin work @ hm means u will complete ur work faster than the rest. U need "talent" too. Lol. Sianz.

Y is it so tough to like some1? So taxing on me. I feel so sad 1 moment then happy another. Weird sia. Sian Sian Sian.

Happenings of todae.
Lol. Shooters that played DotA (James,me,daniel,amos,alvin) keep making fun of antony. damn funny la. cos he always say until he damn pro. not bad, we say until like he the MOST pro in the whole world. worship him sia. lol. Other than tt, it is yet another typical wednesday. Boring, go through 1.5 hrs of augustine chan. like shit la. lol. lucky shooting was rather fun todae. after that went 2 play soccer with antony till abt 7.30. trained on our long shot skills. wad a pity the class is not taking part in the soccer for the sports carnival. Hope we actually do win in the frisbee competition cos Daniel's class also taking part in it. Muz win him. lol. Nothing else for todae. no nice things i have seen as well. still tinkin of gettin the watch. Thx 2 those that haf provided their generous feedback on the watch. Most of u said it is nice and i will consider gettin the 1 with the red face and the white strap. Well, cyaz soon. Will post more fotos soon as well. But u can dream on if u r waitin 4 me 2 put a photo of myself. Lol. Enjoy the rest of ur day. Cyaz.

Yet another boring day has passed.
Problems Experienced: Pls do not keep pushing all the work onto me. I already helped you all complete all the questions for that exercise then u all still want me to do the presentation. You guyz are just so unhelpful. Secondly, i noe i suck in games like netball, basketball and so forth, but please don't come and laugh at me. U all want me 2 laugh @ u in soccer? I might not b good, but i sure am btr than u all. So laugh @ me all u want provided u want me 2 laugh @ u as well.

Basically, today i went through same old school, then went out to Bukit Timah to play DotA. Sadly, i got last, but it was enjoyable. Cause there was no1 laughing @ each other even if we lost and did dumb stuff. So unlike class activities. So much more enjoyable than class games.

To (mystery person) : I like u, but i struggle to find things 2 say when in ur presence. All i can force out is the typical hi and bye. How i wish i could find things 2 tok 2 u so that we can get 2 noe each other btr. Thanks for bothering to reply my messages.

For today's blog, my discontent within me has subsided by a huge amount since i created this blog and vented my frustrations on it. Tiramisu ice cream is really great! Other than this, i m lookin 4ward 2 gettin this crumpler bag and also this Rip Curl watch. LOL! Any one got any information on the latest Nike shoes? And, hueva wanna play DotA (Defence of the Ancients), pls look 4 me on my msn! (jerold_tan@hotmail.com) Today, nothing much happened in school other than the fact that i m most likely gonna pass my physics test just by studying for it last minute. Woohoo! I shall stop here. Cyaz Soon!

Disappointed Person

Now, after lambasting my classmates, i shall express my personal discontent at myself.
In actual fact, i hate myself in every possible way that anyone can tink of and even in ways that people cant tink of. Lets staRT.

1. Y the hell do i complain so much? It is after all other people's comments and i can just take them as music to my ears, dont u tink? Yea, i tot of that too. But, i still complain. Thus, i hate myself.

2. Y do i stumble and stutter whenever i meet the girl of my dreams? Is it really that hard 2 express myself in front of her? So wad if i like her? Y whenever i meet her, i totally cant tok? I can tok 2 others. DISAPPONTED in myself. If i dun voice out or even tok 2 her, i doubt i haf any chance. Looks like i will remain a lonely person throughout my life. Dun bother to console me.

3. Y do i keep neglecting my studies? If i actually do study, i m sure i can do very well. But wad do i do instead? I spend all my time on training for my Air Rifle competitions, going down 2 town, playing games like DotA and Championship Manager and also playing soccer like so often. Wad a big difference i will c in my mid year grades if i decide to throw away all these time spent wasting away, and instead go study. I tink i might even get the AAA that i tink i will never ever get. I hope i can really get myself down 2 studying. Perhaps, wif the help of the girl i like, i may study. LOL. doubt it. I do not haf studying genes in me. If i study, it is mostly gonna b bcos i got spited and haf a strong determination 2 beat the person that dares 2 spite me.

4. Y do i neglect my secondary school friends that are no longer studying wif me? I really shouldnt b neglecting time. Perhaps i should allocate some of the free time that i have on them instead of spending it all on my computer that will never answer me. Though it will hear my problems like in this blog, it will never respond =(

5. Y do i get temperamental so easily. It makes me seem like a very petty person. OK wait, i really am a petty person. Come to tink of it, i haf made small problems seem like huge problems capable of starting a war. When will i ever change. i hope that is soon.

OK, i tink that is enough slamming of myself. I will report more of my misadventures in my life. Cyaz

Memories of the Past

If any of u manage to c this blog (dun worry i wun mention any names though i will always remember hu haf done shit to me). As a summary, lemme explain myself. Last year, u guyz still treated me as a friend and i enjoyed my time wif all of u. But this year, u guyz haf done too much shit. U tink i like all that shit?! FUCK u if u tink i do. If i dun type this out, i bet none of u will realise how much shit i have endured this year. Come to think about it, i tink i have quite good endurance... surviving all this while without venting any of my anger on u guyz. Hu haf i vented all these anger on? GAMES.

Time to elaborate (No names will be mentioned)
1. To ALL of u that ENJOY calling me JIALAT or any other nicknames. FUCK ALL OF U! MY NAME WAS GIVEN BY MY MUM AND DAD AND IT IS NOT UP TO U FUCKERS TO MAKE FUN OF!
2. To the 2 jokers who suddenly lost their BRAINS and decided to kick MY SOCCER BALL (it cost me 30 bucks u assholes) in front of MR CHEW. U tink jz because u went on a BINTAN trip wif him, u all BROTHERS ISIT? U nv ever learn not to kick a ball in front of a teacher?!
3. To the same 2 people, hu were the people that told me that they would go get the ball back from Mr Lim? I tink u r fuckin gay la. Say already then dun fucking dare to go and do. Of course wad, not ur ball and NOT UR FUCKIN MONEY! That $30 took me so long to save up and none of u cared for it! FUCK U ASSHOLES!
4. To the guy that said my wristband is of a gay colour. Y dun u come and tell me in my fucking face? HUH?! I too ugly 4 u to fuckin tok 2 isit. U dun like the colour, then come tell me la. Y tell others and dun dare tell me. If some1 else didnt tell me, i also wun noe la? U dun like the colour my PROBLEM ah? Its mine la. NOT FUCKING URS so u shut ur mouth!
5. To the people that said i m a POSEUR juz because i buy my wristband. Fuck u all la. I want buy ur problem isit? Any fuckin hell call me a poseur. CB. Some1 else in the class also got buy wad (Y NO FUCKIN PERSON SAY HE POSEUR). He himself ownself say tt because got so many people have tt y he go buy. WTF LA. Go check urselves can or not.
6. To the person that said i suck @ everything. U tink u good in everything isit? I aint lousy at everything la. I also never said i m gd @ everything. At least i m better than u in some aspects. So how can u say i suck @ everything. If i suck @ everything, then shouldnt u also? Since u also lose to me in some aspects. lemme explain. u Said i suck in Frisbee, Running, Studying, Basketball, Soccer. Aiya. STFU and check urself. I beat u in 2.4, studies, Situps, Soccer. So shuddap la.
7. To the people that keep laughing @ me when i miss the frisbee. M i the only one tt misses the frisbee at times? when ever i screw up, i can hear u all go *tsk*. DUN FUCKIN TINK I CANT HEAR U LA! Wad happens when other people miss? People say nevermind. Does any one ever say tt to me when i miss? NOBODY. U guyz jz go around and say i suck just because i miss 1 frisbee. has anyone ever congratulated me when i catch a frisbee and score a point? No. some other people jz catch the frisbee and u all go and congratulate them. I hate it la. Cant anybody show some appreciation to me? I guess u guyz cant. cos i bet most of u ppl dun even tink of me as a fren anyway
8. To those assholes that agreed with Mr Chan when he said tt i should write an extra essay whenever i fail to collect readings. FUCK U ASSHOLES! Havent the other reps also forgot to collect their materials from Nancy? OF COURSE THEY HAVE. But have any1 asked them to do extra work juz because they fail to do their jobs? NO! U guyz dun care about me la. Wad u guyz tink i m? Jz some lame worker tt has to collect all ur shit for u all isit? Nv do GP homework, say i nv inform u all la. How convenient. OMFG. U guyz really treat me like shit la.
9. Hueva tinks i m dumb, pls be reminded that i won most of u in the recent tests WITHOUT studying. so tink b4 u tok. SERIOUSLY

For now, this is all i can remember. Till i remember more, there will be no updated posts. But i shall end off with something else that i have learnt. And that is that over the course of the year of 2005 (wadeva that has passed), i have learnt that most of my true friends DO NOT lie in the class of 2T15 but instead these trustworthy companions of mine that i can readily tok 2 in times of need lie in my Ragnarok Online mates and my Secondary School friends that have followed me on to CJC. I thank these people for always being there 4 me to listen 2 my problems. But this is not to say that i have not found true friends in my classmates of 2T15. There are people that do not treat me as shit like the rest of u haf and i will acknowledge that by treating them as my best friends. Though i will not vent my frustrations on those that haf hurt me in so many ways that i have to list em all out here, i will still treat u all as my friends and i hope that someday u all will realise how hurt i m thanks to all of u. With that, i END.